Roger the Damned

Jane 02-10-2004 08:55 PM
This is my attempt at continuing the story of "Big O". It continues with

"Black Forest"
"Oh Ye Mortals!"
,
"In the Circle Cocytus"

Story Board
Sin and Sorrow

ACT:27
Roger the Damned

“My name is Roger Smith. I perform a much-needed job here in this city of amnesia.”

Roger Smith did not believe in things like doubt and uncertainty. Confidence was his credo, and certitude his shield. The elderly of the city, those who had lost so much forty years ago, would find him an unusual man, but to the younger citizens of Paradigm City the confidence of Roger Smith was a familiar mask. Those who live without a past must make a choice to live in confidence or to die in doubt. But today Roger Smith was dealing with an unusual sensation. He had the nagging feeling that he was supposed to be somewhere, even though today he had nowhere in particular to go.

“This place, Paradigm City, is a town of forgetfulness...”

The long limousine hit a large plate in the road which jarred Roger in his seat and made a loud clanking noise that caused several pedestrians to glance up at the long, sleek automobile. It was one more thing determined to bend Roger’s steely will, like the name that was on this tip of his tongue but refused to be said. Like the unnamed thing in the back of his mind that was screaming out to be recognized, but which wouldn’t stay put long enough to be dealt with. Roger chased it for only a moment until laughing he let it go, slicking his dark hair back as he did.

“Give it up,” he thought to himself, “If it really is important I’m sure it can be dealt with later.”

Deftly and with practiced ease, Roger erased the doubts from his mind and steered the Griffon homeward.

“...humans are adaptable creatures, they make due and go on with life.”

On the way home, Roger stopped at the Speakeasy. Without a glance at the other customers he headed straight for his favorite chair and leaned back against the wall. Out of habit he turned to his right, pulled a wad of cash from his coat, and set it on the table.

“Sir?” A young waiter asked, eyeing the bills eagerly, “May I help you?”

Roger paused a moment, slightly confused, before lifting the bills from the table and handing them to the boy.

“Yes,” he said, “I’d like a drink.”

“People can survive without knowing what did or didn’t happen in the past.”

He was delayed on the journey home when traffic stopped to let the military police vehicles through. It did not take long for the great beasts to lumber by, however, and soon he was being waved on. He drove the Griffon into it’s underground garage and rode the small wire elevator to the top floor. An aged man in formal dress was waiting there for him.

“Master Roger, welcome home.” the butler spoke in placid tones.

“Norman please check the breaks. Their efficiency has dropped by 1/8.” Roger answered, strangely annoyed.

“Really sir? I’ll see to it after I’ve prepared your dinner. Perhaps I haven’t been maintaining them properly.”

Roger pulled off his tie and held it at arms length. He felt inclined to say something, but nothing particular came to mind, so he let his arm drop and turned away.

“Master Roger,” Norman added quickly, “I’d nearly forgotten, but there’s a Miss Wainwright waiting to see you.”

“A lady guest?” Roger asked lecherously, “You let her in?”

“Yes sir.”

Roger returned the tie to it’s position and began the assent to where the young lady was waiting. Of all the rules that held sway in the Smith household, this was his favorite.

“But memories, like nightmares, sometimes come when you least expect them.”

The young woman stood silhouetted in the window as Roger reached the top of the stairs. The bright sunlight made it difficult to see her clearly, but Roger could see that she was small and thin and dressed all in black.

“I have a special rule...” Roger began, but somehow he could not complete the familiar introduction. Somehow it felt hollow and unnatural.

The young woman turned around and looked at him, sizing him up with deep and piecing eyes.

“Roger,” she said mechanically, and yet, almost familiarly.

Suddenly the name that had escaped him all day came to his lips.

“Dorothy.”

He did not know this young woman. He had never seen her before and yet he knew her name. Suddenly he began to feel something inexplicable. He began to feel uncomfortable.

“Roger,” she continued, ignoring his discomfort, “Our memories are gone. Do you love me?”

Roger choked down a gasp. “What?” he asked suddenly.

“You and I have lost our memories. Beck stole the one’s my father gave me and yours have been erased.”

Roger was feeling increasingly awkward; the girl was confusing and, perhaps, delusional, but he found himself intrigued. Perhaps her tiny waist was distracting him.

“So you have lost your memories?” He asked, trying to remain in charge of the situation, “and you want me to negotiate for their return?”

“Not my memories,” she said calmly, as if explaining something to a stupid child, “Those memories aren’t mine anymore.”

“Because they were stolen?” Roger asked, attempting to piece together her fragmented speech, “They don’t belong to you because they were taken?”

He paused a moment to loosen his tie, “And there was a romance that was erased with the memories?

“What never existed cannot be erased,” the girl said quietly.

Roger didn’t know how to respond to that one. He was inclined to think that this game of words had become a little tiresome, but there was something almost comforting in the gentle sameness of her voice, and something quietly reassuring in her small, pale face.

She stepped down from the window and began to walk toward him. Roger heard a faint sound as she moved, almost like the quiet whir of machinery, and suddenly he remembered--no--realized what she was.

Unheeded, quiet words of amazement crossed his lips.

“Damn.”

She continued to walk forward until she was standing directly in front of him, then, accompanied by the same quiet drone, she lifted her head, looked into his eyes, raised her right arm, and touched his cheek with her cold hand.

Suddenly he felt something akin to terror. He dropped to the floor, shaking violently. His mind went black and strange images began to flash in his mind: giant robots attacking Paradigm City, Paradigm City whole and healthy, himself dead in his own giant robot, the Megadeus Big O, and then an image of himself in Big O and this same young woman beside him, plugged into the Big O through an empty slot in her forehead.

“What is this?” Roger asked, curled on the floor and trembling as new images were painted across his eyes.

He saw himself as a child, his head shaved and wearing a strange uniform. A serial number flashed in his eye.

“Memories are very precious to people’s lives. They give us the opportunity to prove to ourselves that we exist.”

“Are these memories?” Roger asked.

He saw himself again, a vagabond and a wanderer. Helpless and alone in a Paradigm City where everyone had a place but him.

“If we lose them, we have an unrelenting feeling of uncertainty.”

“Whose memories are these!” Roger screamed.

In the darkness he heard Dorothy’s voice, “You are a true dominues Roger Smith.”

Roger saw himself piloting the Big O against another Big, one bent on destroying the city. Then he watched as that Big was crippled and another one rose up, pale and inverted. A Big that began to turn Paradigm city into a blank.

“I, myself, don’t even know who I am.”

“The Bigs are constant, they do not forget, they are never erased,” Dorothy continued.

Roger saw what appeared to be a control room with a wall lined with television screens. An attractive blond sat in front of them, directing the action, but there was someone else was in the room, someone with just as much control. Someone tall and imposing and dressed in black. It was Roger.

“Big O’s memories are yours,” Dorothy said, “and yours are his, and now they are also mine.”

“I was the one who made that choice.”

Roger Smith opened his eyes. He was lying on the floor, his head in Dorothy’s lap. She was quietly stroking his hair, the same way she had once lovingly stroked a small gray cat. When she saw that he was awake she stopped and moved her hands to her side. Roger could hear the quiet squeal of metal as she moved.

For a moment they simply stayed as they were, waiting for something to happen.

“You must stop denying your own existence.”

Then Roger’s eyes went wide as another name came to mind.

“Angel.”
Jane 02-10-2004 08:56 PM
Suddenly there was a deep, deafening sound from outside the window. Roger ran to the window and scanned the horizon. He knew that sound; somewhere inside the Domes there was a megadeus.

Roger held up his watch and turned towards Dorothy.

“I guess you’ll be coming?”

She nodded.

“Norman,” Roger spoke into the watch, “I’ll be needing Big O.”

Within the domes the guns of the military police had begun to fire. General Dastan and his men were attempting to hold back something that looked like the decomposing remains of half a megadues. It was sliding along the ground using what was left of its arm and remaining leg to sidestroke it’s way towards the center of Paradigm. It was a cripple, but it seemed to be more than the military’s tanks could handle.

From a safe distance a shapely blond dressed in flamboyant pink watched the scene nonplussed. She was thinking of the long, black limousine she had seen pass by earlier. With that thought she smiled and turned away, walking calmly in the direction the soulless thing was headed.

The streets became more crowded as she made her way towards the center of Paradigm. Cars were jamming the roads as traffic was diverted away from danger, and many pedestrians were running frantically between them, unsure of which direction to go. The blond, however, remained undisturbed by the panic, blowing a kiss at a bedraggled policeman who tried to wave her in the opposite direction.

She continued to walk casually towards the center of the domes, stopping only when the ground beneath her rumbled to watch as the head of a great black megadues emerged above the tops of the buildings.

She smiled at the megadues and, whistling a tune, she turned and continued on her way.

In the cockpit of the megadues sat Roger, his hands firmly grasping the controls as the words “Ye Not Guilty” flashed on the screen in front of him. R. Dorothy stood silently behind him, watching as the crippled monster slid towards Big O like a side winding snake.

Roger frowned, “What is that thing?”

R. Dorothy said softly, “He is an exile.”

“Then let’s send it back to where it came from,” Roger said as he swung his arm backwards in an arc.

“Big O!” he shouted with obvious glee, “It’s showtime!”

“So you still remember how to make yourself ridiculous,” R. Dorothy said flatly.

Roger ignored her and swung his arm forward, aiming the arm of his megadues for the head of broken half-Big. But as Big O swung his massive arm downwards, the relic pushed upwards with it’s stub, raising itself to the precarious position of standing on its only leg. Big O’s arm connected with nothing but earth.

The force of the impact made the ground throughout the city shake so that even from the center of Paradigm’s central dome the slender blonde could feel the momentum of the punch. From far away she could now see two Bigs dwarfing Paradigm.

“Don’t forget,” she said, winking at the black megadeus, “The memories are in the head.”

Then she turned back to face the great dilapidated building that sprang up from the center of Paradigm to spread it’s wings through the top of the dome. It was a crumbling old relic that was avoided or ignored by most out of primordial fear. But for Angel Rosewater the old tower held no fear; only a sense of familiarity and belonging. It was the place where she was meant to be all along.

With an eerie composure, Angel skipped up the steps of the tower and opened the door.

General Dan Dastan, however, had no composure at all. He was trying desperately to evacuate the area surrounding the Black megadues and the half-bodied monster. He was also trying to bring his troops into a position where they could aid the black megadues and help bring down its opponent with as little damage to the city as possible. He was about to order his men to fire, when the broken megadeus opened a chamber in it’s chest, revealing a loaded chamber that fired three missiles at the Black Big.

Big O raised it’s arms to block the blow, and Dastan could hear the sound of tearing and burning. When the smoke cleared, Dastan saw that Big O’s arm had been literally torn away in the blast, and was now lying behind it in a heap of charred metal.

The Black megadues, however, continued to attack without it’s arm. It opened it’s central chamber and let loose a barrage of missiles, and, at the same time, released a chain from its hip that wrapped itself around its opponent’s legs. With a great crash, the monster fell to the ground. The Big O drew it closer with the chain, and then swung it’s remaining arm towards the face of the half-thing and readied it’s pistons for one final blow.

From the cockpit, R. Dorothy said one final word before Roger released the piston.

“Goodbye.”

And then the head of the relic crumbled into nothingness.

Inside the central tower, Angel Rosewater was examining a row of screens that blinked and fuzzed. Each display showed the same thing: Roger the Negotiator in the cockpit of Big O as his megadues crushed the head of it’s opponent. Then in succession each screen dimmed and went black.

Angel watched as a face began to emerge in the central screen. At first it resembled the head of a megadeus with cold, lidless eyes, but then the face shifted somewhat, keeping the steely eyes and the same basic contours but distorting the rest until the face almost appeared--human.

Immediately a phrase came to Angel’s mind.

A bird whose wings have been plucked will shed all it’s feathers and turn back into the beast it was before it evolved into a bird.

“Venus,” Angel whispered, staring back into the steely eyes that were prying into hers.

“At times,” said a cold deep voice that was synched perfectly with the lip movements on the screen.

Angel paused, and then shivered suddenly, averting her eyes from the cold, white, emotionless face.

“You are Slander,” she said.

“Yes.”

Roger helped R. Dorothy step down from the cockpit of Big O as the giant megadues barreled it’s way back into it’s underground rail system. Hidden by the billowing smoke caused by its burrowing, the pair listened unobserved as General Dastan cursed the mess that had been caused by the battle.

Roger smiled and said, “Come on R. Dorothy. Let’s go home.”

She tried to read his face through the billowing dust cloud.

“Are you sure?” she asked.

“Of course Dorothy,” Roger said, smiling at her.

She reached out her hand and slipped it inside his. Roger pulled away in surprise, and Dorothy began to take her hand away, but Roger grabbed it before she could and held it tightly. And as the dust of the megadues battle drifted away in the darkness, the two of them walked quietly home hand in hand.

We Have Come To Terms.

Next Episode:
Cycles of Purgatory
Tifaria 02-10-2004 09:14 PM
quote:
She reached out her hand and slipped it inside his. Roger pulled away in surprise, and Dorothy began to take her hand away, but Roger grabbed it before she could and held it tightly. And as the dust of the megadues battle drifted away in the darkness, the two of them walked quietly home hand in hand.



That part really touched me.. I guess because I longed so badly to see something like it in the series. The imagery there is just beautiful, of the two of them awkwardly turning their relationship in another direction.

Shocked I am speechless. Your writing, it.. it flows so well! I don't know what to say, I'm so floored by this. I get the feeling it's going to be a little darker than A Clockwork Tomato's series, and that's okay. Don't hesitate to post! Personally, I am very eager to find out where you are going with this.
Wingnut 02-10-2004 09:56 PM
Lovely Roger/Dorothy moment there at the end.
I am assume ing that Roger picked up Big O's severed arm and sent it hime with the rest of Big O. Perhaps most importantly, what's up with Angel? What does she think she is doing?
Don't hesitate to post continueing parts of this, take it where it wants to go. ANd let us be the judge of weither it is good or not. A writer's worst critic is themself.
Tony Waynewrong 02-10-2004 09:58 PM
That was superb, Jane. Kudos.
BigPrime 02-10-2004 10:02 PM
Great story, Jane! A very good continuation of your earlier piece! Smile Please continue,another Season 3 is always a good thing. We do need something to tide us over, after all.
Stampede 02-11-2004 04:11 AM
...As long as Beck lives to go on to a successful career as a musician after reclaiming his memories of the album Mellow Gold, anyway.

So, did Dorothy's memory not get erased because she was plugged in to Big O at the time, or is there another, SECRETER reason?
Pygmalion 02-11-2004 06:58 AM
I like how you've fleshed out your previous story segment. I'll be interested to see where you go with your season 3.

Pygmalion
Big Ben 02-11-2004 08:12 AM
Intriguing beginning to a new series. I'm looking forward to more of your Third Season.
NotAsleep 02-12-2004 01:10 AM
Jane, thank you for not only finishing this story, but also expanding it into a full season. I'm definitely interested in seeing where you take this. Don't write it for us, or for ACT, or anyone else. Write it for yourself, and for the characters you've started to make your own. I'll be looking forward to the next installment. Again, thanks.
Advinius 02-12-2004 10:04 AM
very nice stuff, Jane. i reaaly liked dorothy's intro to roger, and the bit at the end. the megadeus action was pretty decent too. I'm, looking forward to seeing how things played out.
trisha 02-12-2004 01:58 PM
Wow Jane, i loved the story, let me say you have the heart of a true writer.** clapping**
Kat 03-29-2004 05:47 PM
I'm glad to see that you did indeed continue (and re-do sort of, as well) "Roger the Dreamer". You're very good. ^_^ Now, I'm off to read more! Big Grin
BabyGhia 01-13-2005 01:30 AM
Zola mentioned that I should read this and I noticed your new story so why not read it? Anyway... I really like it.

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“So you still remember how to make yourself ridiculous,” R. Dorothy said flatly.

I love this line. LOL! Just the thing I can image Dorothy saying also.

Now to read the next one...

BabyGhia
BethMcBeth 03-16-2005 07:00 AM
Yes I have to agree with Baby Ghia that line is hilarious! ^_^"" Excellent stroy! Very very well done! Keep up the awesome stuff and I'll have to read the rest too! ^_^""